The Strain(s) Of A Song

It's a sweet tune, but a sad tune. It's a tune of love, but it has strains of hurt and it's just so sad and yet so lovely and happy at once.

When I listen to it, I think of being in a fairytale. It's that feeling you get when you watch a good movie, or read a good book. When the fairytale ends and you're brought back to reality. That bittersweet feeling, of losing something you love, but know is fiction. Of losing something you know can only be a dream.

The song is a dream. I watched the movie because I couldn't bare to not know how the dream ended. It was lovely. They were lovely. They had a happy ending. But the strains of the song haunt me. I can hear the violin when I sleep and the tune causes me to lose focus and drift off into a place I don't know how to return from.

The song is hope, and love and ecstasy, but also disappointment and hurt at once. Some days I can't stand the hollow the song brings, the sheer emptiness. And yet it's there, waiting, eating into me, filling me up, seeping into my skin, sinking into my blood, haunting every thought.

I'm in a different place when I hear its melancholy strains. It's a place I used to be in, but I can't put a finger on it. The feeling is familiar but it's almost painful to hear it. And yet it's like a drug. I need to listen to it. To the point where I can't stand it anymore and I know the dream has to end.

Sometimes music has a way of making you feel what you don't want to feel, what you don't know you're feeling, reminding you of what you want to feel. Many songs have put me under a spell, but this is different. This song is an emotion. This song is a feeling. And I don't know how to listent to it anymore.



I've been listening to a song that is under my skin now and I can't sleep or wake up without listening to it. It's from a movie from three years ago. And I stumbled across it after a long time and I was taken to another place.

I'm under a spell. I'm so completely taken by this tune, I wonder if it will ever get old. It's completely riveting. It's so beautiful, it actually hurts on on some level. I close my eyes and I honestly feel the song. I am in it and it's in me. It haunts me and I can't seem to find a way to break the spell.